Schedule? We Don't Need No Stinkin' Schedules!

Admittedly, I'm not off to a good start here. I was so excited to start the blog, a bazillion ideas racing through my head, then...well...work happens?

There's a reason why companies have a strong business case for having employees work at home - this weekend was a real life testimonial. Deadline of Monday morning, earlier than any human (in the US anyway) wakes up, and what choice did they have but to let me hammer away at the project all weekend long. And really, I shouldn't complain - I kept telling myself this all weekend as I went nearly blind from staring at spreadsheets and crunching numbers like some sort of Excel Superwoman.

"It's not a big deal! You didn't want to work in the yard anyway. You have a good few days left to plant those things from Home Depot. A few days...at least."

I mean, who could complain about working from home all weekend, with the knowledge that I'll end up being comped out a couple of days this coming week anyway to make up for it. I think it just boils down to getting tied to your computer? The boundaries of "work" and "life" have all smooshed together at this point, and while I rationalize this state, and try to find ways to set some sort of structure to manage this complexity, at the end of the day it's still messy. I'm still not sure where work ends and life begins.

And this leads me back to the ultimate purpose of this blog in the first place - how the hell did I wind up with everything I could have possibly wanted - a great job, great family, great house (well, it's a fixer-upper, but it has potential still!), great LIFE - and end each day wondering if this is all life is cracked up to be.

I'm not sure what has caused this mini-life crisis for me, all I do know is that at the end of the day, I have no idea what to do about it. Maybe it's this strange working at home situation? Maybe it's the fact that I'm turning 33 in exactly 11 days? Maybe it's that I have no idea what to do with myself now that I've accomplished all those things (school, career, family) that I set out to accomplish?

In any case, I finally finished working on the spreadsheet project from hell which consumed my entire weekend, and so now it's time to try to relax a bit in the few hours remaining before Monday morning...

Next on list: Glass of wine